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Mar. 23rd, 2026 07:06 pmok so I was thinking about the meds I've taken, right? and it made me start thinking about this abusive moid my mom used to date. he wasn't outwardly abusive, but he was just.... skeevy. IDK. he was from mexico and she dated him before in the past like... back in 2005-2008. hated his ass. she started dating him again in 2019-2021. I got on this train of thought because, like... i took this tramadol my mom had but she didn't know where it came from. she's had it for a longass time apparently. and then i remembered a time back in laaaaaate 2019? i found this med in one of her cabinets and i was like "yo, what's this?" cus when i see a pill, i take it. whatever happens, happens, but this one was more suspicious looking and she freaked the FUCK out on me because it was one of those scary ass meds, the type you shouldn't abuse because it can kill you probably. she was freaking out and mad at me and she didn't know how it got in the house. i was like "HOW THE HELL WOULD I KNOW? I DON'T GET THESE KINDS OF MEDS." we just started blaming my sister like she probably left it there. she was always on some shit back then.
my memory of this is fuzzy, but i remember piecing together her fucking moid probably planted that there to make us fight and make her think i was crazy because he loooooved to make me look bad. i pieced this together because some things didn't add up, and he knew i abused and stole her meds, he knew where it usually was, and he knew where to get them.
after my ex visited, i overheard him and mom talking and he said i wasn't smart and that she was taking advantage of me (he thought she was just a friend, ofc....) and was using me for my money. real funny cus she was the one losing money buying me shit LMFAO. and buying an expensive ass plane ticket to see me. my mom got mad at him for real for calling me basically stupid and they got in a fight and his ass was GONE for good. THIS is when i was like omfg. he totally put that dangerous ass pill there to make us fight. he totally did. mom wouldn't bring something like that in the house and why the hell would my SISTER do it either? she was long off that kinda shit by that point.
anyways, this i when i started actually googling pill names and sizes when i find one JIC cus before that i was rawdogging that shit. let fate take it's course.
my fucking tooth is on and off starting to hurt and i'm like fuck man. can this infection just kill me bro we can't afford this procedure and it's so much paperwork just to get back in and also to find a resource for cutting the payment in half like those payment plan things idk. it's so much effort that my mom never wants to do. basically i'm just waiting for the infection to kill me. i've gotten abscesses that made my face swell up so bad i go to the emergency room lookin like elephant man. it makes my face feel like a rock and it's painful as fuck. this is like a cancer. a slow, painful death. except there is a cure, kinda. we just can't afford it and don't have time. i hate pain i aint no masochist.
my memory of this is fuzzy, but i remember piecing together her fucking moid probably planted that there to make us fight and make her think i was crazy because he loooooved to make me look bad. i pieced this together because some things didn't add up, and he knew i abused and stole her meds, he knew where it usually was, and he knew where to get them.
after my ex visited, i overheard him and mom talking and he said i wasn't smart and that she was taking advantage of me (he thought she was just a friend, ofc....) and was using me for my money. real funny cus she was the one losing money buying me shit LMFAO. and buying an expensive ass plane ticket to see me. my mom got mad at him for real for calling me basically stupid and they got in a fight and his ass was GONE for good. THIS is when i was like omfg. he totally put that dangerous ass pill there to make us fight. he totally did. mom wouldn't bring something like that in the house and why the hell would my SISTER do it either? she was long off that kinda shit by that point.
anyways, this i when i started actually googling pill names and sizes when i find one JIC cus before that i was rawdogging that shit. let fate take it's course.
my fucking tooth is on and off starting to hurt and i'm like fuck man. can this infection just kill me bro we can't afford this procedure and it's so much paperwork just to get back in and also to find a resource for cutting the payment in half like those payment plan things idk. it's so much effort that my mom never wants to do. basically i'm just waiting for the infection to kill me. i've gotten abscesses that made my face swell up so bad i go to the emergency room lookin like elephant man. it makes my face feel like a rock and it's painful as fuck. this is like a cancer. a slow, painful death. except there is a cure, kinda. we just can't afford it and don't have time. i hate pain i aint no masochist.
